And so.... Day97 or whatever it is now and I'm still facing the same prospect I faced at day 50 and day 25 and day 1...letting go. I know it's the right thing but...who would ever think it would be so hard? I miss her. Some days...I just miss her like crazy. Hilary says it isn't her so much that I miss but the closeness we shared. That there wasn't all bad times. Why is it that it's all I can remember? Yet...I still miss her.
I wonder what she's doing now. Who she spends her time with. Is she the same or different? Is she controlling of them the way she was with me? Does she still think she is a victim? Is she sorry?
Andy says I have to let go. I know he's right. I just wish it was easy
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